I’m not going to lie, I nearly didn’t publish this photoshoot.
It was one was of those outfits that in my head actually looked pretty good, but when I got the shots back, was very unhappy with.
I knew when I bought this dress of ASOS that it was going to be a risk for me, the pencil skirt, the open back and the high neck were all things that I was a bit uncertain about, and to be perfectly honest, I’m still not sure about them, but I’m posting this to prove to myself that its fine. Yeah, you can see my stomach, you can see my soft, chubby back, and it doesn’t matter.
I’ve been having a bit of a insecure body time of late, I’ve put on weight and I’m not particularly happy about it. As a plus size blogger I feel a lot of pressure to be 100% happy with my body all of the time, regardless of what I wear or what size I am, but underneath it all, i’m still on the journey of loving my body, I’m not totally there yet, I still have days where I catch a glance in a mirror and I’m unhappy with what I see, and I think thats okay sometimes.
I’m still going to have days where I’m not overjoyed with whats staring back at me, but for the most part I’m happy and healthy in my body, my size 16-18 body that has carried me through hards days and good days, I have scars and stretch marks and bumps and bruises but none of that matters, because it marks my journey, people who I have loved and lost and experiences that I wouldn’t trade for anything.
What I Wore:
Top: ASOS – $45
Shoes: Target – $30
Headband: Collette – $8.95
Necklace: Diva – $3 on sale
Cuff: Alexander McQueen from Net-A-Porter – $250
Script Ring: Tree of Life – $55
Skull Ring: Karen Walker – $45
Photos by Watson.